I had “visit a new cafe” on my to-do list for awhile and finally went out to one! It was filled with plants and felt like a magical little oasis in the city.
I was looking through my camera roll and honestly didn’t have many pictures! I got covid for the first time ever this month, so I didn’t do much besides sleep and look at wild turkeys for about 10 days.
While I’m very much looking forward to the fall (Fall!!!!!!!), I’m really thankful for this past summer. It was a challenging one and really pushed me to grow and get out of my comfort zone. Dealt with difficult people, grew more comfortable doing things on my own, and also made the effort to meet new people.
I even organized dinner with a bunch of internet strangers tonight haha! It’s so crazy that I can type some words on my computer and people will just appear…thankfully all normal people.
What I’m growing more certain of is that everyone is a little lonely. Maybe not all the time, and maybe some people feel it more than others, but for sure everyone understands the feeling. It’s more than just feeling down that you don’t have people around you. It’s feeling sad AND feeling like no one else understands this sadness your feeling. It’s a master of deception. And while it’s also sad to think that actually so many people are feeling this way, it’s comforting to think we’re not alone in our loneliness.
I saw Lauv perform yesterday evening, and his songs mention loneliness a lot, which I guess is why I like his songs so much haha. Not necessarily because they’re sad songs, but because he’s an honest lyricist. Being in a room of hundreds of people singing things like “She had those lonely eyes, I only know ’cause I have them too” and “I’m lonely af” was something I didn’t know I needed.
madelaku 