madelaku

“Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards.”

Søren Kierkegaard

June 2022

I’ve moved! My mom gave me one of her pothos plants that she propagated, and it’s currently chilling on the window sill in my room, looking over all the city street action. I’ve been thinking a lot about where I am now vs where I was 10 years ago since my high school graduation anniversary recently passed. I think at 18 I was ready to get out of the house, and to be honest, just really, really wanted a boyfriend. Having been through different relationships, cities, and jobs, I’m starting to believe that the awesome person I was waiting to walk into the room and change my life, that I’d marry and be happy with forever, is really just me, or rather a more awesome version of me that I’ve become over the years.

As much as I gripe about wasting my best years on people who didn’t deserve or appreciate it, I’ve learned a ton and have a better understanding of people and myself. We’re already at the midpoint of the year, and I hope that the rest of the year is filled with good people, good food, good reads, good rest, barre classes that kick my ass, and time well spent.